Moan, Ava! R-18

{She Found Out, Wrong Timing}

Ava POV/Nadaline Residence.

Thirty minutes after the awkward moment in the living room, sleeping kinda got hard because her words kept ringing in my head as if it was going on again, right in front of me but it wasn’t. I started wondering if I had done something that might hurt her before going to the clubhouse the night before but I can’t remember if any of my actions hurt her so deeply. The main reason I came upstairs to my room was to sleep but I couldn’t.

I’m just rolling over and over my bed, madam Nada hasn’t arrived yet. Somehow, I don’t feel like keeping anything from her because he deserves to know Dalton isn’t lucky to have her despite how soft she is. And I also know, I don’t deserve to be an adopted daughter. Another thought of mine is that I don’t want to say anything about it, I just want everything to go and start afresh.

Maybe starting afresh is going to work but still, this decision of mine will destroy a lot of things. The question is, Am I ready to face whatever is likely to come after my confession?

“I’m not sure!-”

“Sure to do what? ” Janice’s voice came from the entrance, which made me rise.

“Just having some thoughts about-”

“If it is about Gold, don’t bother to say it. I don’t want to hear anything about her. ” She said with a conclusive tone and I nodded, pulling the plate of rice and vegetable sauce.

“It’s not about Gold. It’s about me, stupid for opening my legs for Dalton, losing my virginity to him. ” I paused, as I was about to chew down a spoonful of rice.

“Why are you still on that? You made a mistake because no one taught you how to keep yourself. Moreover, your body wanting it isn’t bad but you just need to limit the way you do it with people Ava. You doing with three to four people a day makes you no different from us, strippers on the outside but prostitutes on the inside. I guess that’s what Gold was trying to explain but the way she presented it was wrong. ” Janice explained. Being quiet on her last words, made me think about it for a while.

“Then why did she act that way towards me when you mentioned Martin’s name? ”

“About that, I don’t know. Maybe she thought you had sex with him- ”

“Which I did? I just couldn’t control myself. ” I stuttered, dropping my cutlery as I dropped the food on my bedside.

“You need to refrain from temptation. I thought it was painful at first, how pleasurable is yours pleasurable. ” Janice jokes, which was something to notice in her voice that she was joking.

“It was painful at the first break in but after several whimpering, I felt connected. You know, you get to see another side of the person that’s fucking you. ” I mumbled with a pout and she chuckled.

“I don’t know why I find your words funny Ava, you just clocked nineteen. But here you are talking freely about sex and it’s kinda keeping me on my toes and cold chills, gosh! ” She stuttered, her face did explain how heavy the cold chills were. I laughed and it suddenly became silent.

“What are your plans, Ava? ” She asked as she stood, currently standing in front of my mirror.

“Plans for the future or you don’t? ” She asked, turning her head back at me when she utter (Or you don’t)

“I do tho. I was thinking, if I can go to college, at least it’s not too late to do so. But then, I don’t feel like it. I was thinking if madam Nada can open a clothing business for me. When I was still homeless, I went to this free education for high school, through the help of this lady who was also poor. Because her daughter goes to that school, she helped me with the registration but everything ended when they moved away. So I had to stop at grade ten, I was sixteen when they left. Getting fed was hard, really hard. No one wanted to help. ” I paused after realizing how teary I was.

Janice smiled, as she wiped my tears.

“If you were told to be this okay one day, I would deny it but I wish such words could come true but eventually, here I am today. With the help of madam Nada, I’m perfectly fine, free to eat without thinking of how to eat. ” I burst into tears, after remembering that horrible past that makes me sad when I’m trying to be happy.

“Just be grateful for meeting someone like my boss, and she’s cool and the best. The painful part is that someone like Dalton doesn’t deserve her a bit, the worst part of it is a guilty conscience, it will keep eating you up- ”

“Exactly, that’s why I want to tell her about it. I don’t want to hide anything from her. I can’t keep the idea of myself smiling despite being in pain deep down. ” I mumbled and pulled her arm quickly.

“I will badly need your assistance with something and I will be happy if it works out. ” I mumbled and nodded. Seems that’s a go for me to say whatever I want to say.

“Can you convince madam Nada to get a CCTV camera? Because I tried to but she trusts me a lot. That’s the main reason why I find myself in this. ”

“Hahahaha, you are funny. Imagine, you told her to get something but she didn’t because of how much she trusts you. Now you are telling me to tell her to get it. How sure are, she will listen to me? ”

“I just thought, you can get her to buy it for security reasons. ”

“I will try huh? I will try my best Because she’s hard to convince. ”

“Yeah. Losing my virginity wasn’t what I planned so soon, that alone, I can’t withstand having another sex with Dalton- ”

“Sex with who? ” Came that voice, have been trying to, oh! my! gosh! God! I’m not ready for this! Fuck! Seeing the flash of fear in Janice’s eyes made me weak in the knees.Nôvel(D)ra/ma.Org exclusive © material.

“Ma-am. ” We both stuttered with heavy sweat on my forehead.

Madam Nada’s expression was (Speechless, Betrayed, and Perplexed as her hand went to her chest.

TBC.