Chapter 32
His questions are starting to make me nervous, so I changed the subject and I say about heading back to the apartment. Now that he knows I am uncomfortable which he likes for some reason he always knows when I am nervous. Sometimes I am just not sure how to really answer the questions that he ask me I never know what is the right answer. I want to impress him so much, but I am not lying it’s like I want to tell him all my desires, but I’m scared. I am nervous because of the person that I may become with him, he makes me feel invincible that I can do anything I have never felt this way before. My desire for him is a desire that I have never felt in my entire life and I want to be satisfied so bad. How do I actually tell him the truth about the way he makes me feel without sounding completely insane. So instead I hide it I don’t want to scare him away.
As we start walking back to the apartment he grabs my hand and says “I know that I made you a little uncomfortable, but you can tell me anything I will not judge you I just want to get to know you.”
I look at him as I bite my lip trying to gain control “it’s not that I am Uncomfortable it’s just I don’t know what to say sometimes I am afraid to really say what I truly want to say.”
“You don’t ever have to hide yourself when it comes to me Jessica you can always express yourself anyway you would like.”
“I am just afraid that what if you don’t like what I have to say.”Text property © Nôvel(D)ra/ma.Org.
“I don’t think there is anything about you, that I would not like.”
I look at him and smile “I don’t know about that you seem like you have it all together, and I am just a mess.”
“Looks can be very deceiving just remember that.”
As we get closer to the apartment I stopped him I tell him “let’s not go back to the apartment let’s do something different and exciting.”
“I’m down for anything as long as I’m with you, I don’t care what we do.”
“You have a car let’s go somewhere away from here and have an adventure.”
“Well I will have to go to my apartment to get my keys would you like to come up with me, so I could show you my apartment.”
“Yes I would love to see your apartment.”
As we are walking up to his apartment I can’t believe that I have never been in his apartment. He is so different from everyone that I have been around that’s what I enjoy most. He sees things inside me that I have never seen in myself. I’m ecstatic to go on adventure with him hoping there is more to come. I know that he isn’t about relationships, so I need to distance myself from him and not fall in love with him which I think will be easier said than done. There is just too much about him that I’m attracted to and I barely know him god the more I found out about him I might become head over heels for him god Jessica stop over thinking this and just enjoy today.
We get to his apartment he opens the door for me wow I’m speechless I can’t believe how much nicer his apartment is than mine. He must be into art that pictures that are on his walls make me speechless there so beautiful and sexual all at the same time it’s crazy. Their pictures of women but just like outlines so creative. His furniture is all leather black wow I’m surprised how clean it is especially with him being a guy.
“Jessica you don’t have to stand at the doorway you can come in if you like.”
“Yes of course I’m sorry just wow your apartment is amazing you really have a unique taste.”
“He smirks at me well thank you I guess it’s better to be different from like every body else right.”
“Yes I agree with you on that 100 percent normal is boring need to shake it up right. I really love your paintings they are truly beautiful.”
“There is an artist in New York I love all her drawings she is where I got these paintings that I have.”
“Well she is extremely talented.”
“I couldn’t agree with you more on that end.” As he smiles at me.
“Well my apartment is a shit hole compared to yours.” I let a giggle out.
“I think your apartment is just fine Jessica I found my keys are you ready to hit the road.”
“Yes I’m ready I can’t wait for something fun new and exciting let’s do this.”
“Before we go I want you to do something for me Jessica.”
“Okay what do you want me to do for you?”
“I want you to touch yourself for me, I want you to watch rub your clit and orgasm for me without me even touching you.”
“Wait you want me to do what?”
“I want you to play with your pussy in front of me while I play with my cock watching you.”
I start to blush unsure of what to do I want to please him I want to do whatever he wants me to do he makes want to touch myself, but I have never done it I don’t even know where to start. What do I say to him without sounding like a complete dumb ass damn it? I’ll just have to be honest with him, he would be able to notice anyway when I try to actually pretend that I know what the hell I’m doing anyways.
“Can I be honest with you, and you not make fun?”
“You can always be honest with me I’ll never judge you especially make fun of you.”
He is so sweet as I start to tell him I start to blush I say in a very low tone. “I have never touched myself before.”
“Jess I didn’t hear anything you just said you are going to actually have to say it louder, so I can hear and understand you.”
I start to build up some confidence and just say it “I have never touched myself before.”
“He looks at me and smiles it’s ok I will be your teacher, and you can be my student.”
As I start to blush I am building up with excitement with what is about to happen. Excitement is overcoming as I’m getting ready to be welcomed into a different world I then look at him and say “well do you think we should get to work teacher?”